It’s like I tied a silent noose around my thoughts and squeezed until I couldn’t feel anything at all 

Then when I reach that breaking point as I recall the pain I endured 

The pain that I kept locked away 

Hoping that my bought wouldn’t catch up to me again 

And when it becomes all too much to bear

The pressure builds 

My throat locks uncontrollably 

Like a vice 

And the floodgates release 

Their torrential downpour