Questions Unanswered 

I’m hurting 

Was it worth it 

I’m hurting 

Was it worth it 

I can’t answer this question 

And it leaves a bittersweet taste 

In my mind 

I could try to explain it away 

But something about

Keeping it close 

And keeping it company 

Makes me feel good 

I feel like I have understood 

A Soulful Song 

An African American woman lays 

In the sterile white bed

She has a glass of flowers in full bloom

Her hands are neatly manicured 

I come in quietly 

Introducing myself 

And the function of my presence: 

Just to sit and listen or to

Chit chat a bit I always say sweetly 

The woman tells me of her younger days 

Singing for her local church 

Her love for the songs

And her love for her religion shines 

On her weary face 

I’ve been battling lymphoma 

She says quietly 

Her voice is raspy with age and her battle 

I tell her that 

She is probably still 

A beautiful singer

Before I know it 

A beautiful melody 

Filters through the quiet air 

She powerfully sings 

The song of her youth 

Her voice cracks and dips

But it is the most pure song 

The most real thing 

I have ever listened to 

I smile quietly 

Thank you I say 

You are beautiful 

After a couple moments of 

Comfortable silence 

She tells me 

Out of the blue 

You’re really pretty 

I smile and shake my head 

I remember clearly 

Not even brushing my hair 

That morning 

Thank you

Is all I can say 

And as I bid her adieu 

After more sweet moments 

I rest my hands in hers 

I wish you peace and comfort 

I think to myself

As I look into her eyes 

Willing her to believe 

But I already know 

She’s in good hands already 

What is Resilience?

Often times we see the result of others’ actions as a short term reprieve to pain, or an escape from a situation.

How come we cannot move past the daily shallowness of our observations?

When individuals hurt, they can feel pain years afterwards…

Sometimes seeking answers to the hurt that has been caused upon you will prevent you from causing the same hurt upon others.

Is that then, shallow? Simply selfish?

What about years from now, when the pain has dulled, and the person understands the consequences of their actions or inaction?

There may be regret if they left something near and dear but be better off mentally.

There may be bitterness if they are left in a situation beyond their control, emotions festering and bubbling out of control.

There is so much more than what meets the eye, for all HUMANS.

Yet, we seek the fastest most easy accessible versions of understanding.

And then, we complain that we have misunderstood.

Isn’t resilience applicable in different forms?

It’s not just simply a choice between resistance or acceptance.

Its a mixture of greys when the world thinks that the difference is just choosing white or black.